Who the hell was I kidding?????

I have put on some weight.....I still fit into my clothes. In fact I have pulled out all my size 12's from hiding and most of them fit, a few are a bit tight around the tummy but hey....Its the first time in 3 years.
Back to the weight gain.
After the getaway I was lulled into a false sense of security and I have found it really difficult to get back in to the swing of things. I popped on the scales Monday morning and 74.2kg was staring back at me ...Almost 1 kg gain. I have tried a number of times to start tracking but I am weak and end up eating something bad thinking to my self that I will start again tomorrow- seriously this time.....YEAH RIGHT!!!!!
I need help...
any suggestions on how to get motivated again would be greatly appreciated

Well that's enough whining from me...Thinking of you all

Ok, things weren't as bad as they seemed

So I got on the scales this morning and to my utter surprise I weighed 73.8kg....which I am over the moon at. So as of today I am back tracking.
I remember a while back one of you lovely ladies commented in your blogs about plateaus and how that once you get to a certain weight you stop, it is not your goal weight but because you feel so much better and your clothes feel good. That you sub consciously stop thinking weight loss mode. Well I have been there for the last few weeks. I am down to a size 14 and could easily stop but I would love to get to goal so I need to reassess a few things and get my not so big butt into gear.

I wont be blogging as much either, my eldest daughter has commented about the time I spend on the puter and has asked to kindly cut back and spend some more time with her (point taken) so just to let you know that I do read your blogs but may not have the time to comment but my thoughts are with you.

Hello everyone

Wow I cant believe that it has been almost 3 weeks since I last posted. I have been feeling quiet blah for a while but I have just spent a lovely 4 days in the Dandenong ranges at a scrapbooking getaway. The group of women who I go away with are an amazing bunch. I always come away with my soul refreshed and this time 2 kg heavier.
Before the getaway I was eating crap and while I was there I ate and ate and ate...chocolate, coke and basically anything I could get my teeth into....

But lots of people noticed my weight loss and it was a great feeling..
so I have to get my head back into weight loss mode, I'm not quiet ready for it yet but I am going to do it.

So this is just a quick catch up t say that I am here and I hope everyone else is well

Me at 73.6kg

I had a neighbour take these this afternoon as I have hit half way
I have only got 10 kg to go to goal so I thought half way photos would be a good motivator.
I lost another 100gms this week, not a big loss but every bit counts
Eloise had her orientation morning today for prep next year and she loved it so much that she didn't want to come home...Roll on next year.
I stayed with her so that I could get a feel for the teacher and how the kids interact with her. Well all looks good and I will be happy to leave her next time.

Hope everyone is having a great day

You guys rock!

When I first discovered blogging on the WW site I started reading them for inspiration. It is so much easier doing this when you know that there are other everyday people out there that are facing the same hurdles as me. Never in my wildest dreams that I thought by having my own blog I would have the support that I have found here in blog world. I really believe that I would have given up if it wasn't for the little comments and support you guys give me.

I would love to say a huge thankyou.

I sat at my computer this morning feeling really good about my self and wrote out my questions to the little list that inspired me from Slim Suzy. It is mainly weight loss but I am considering doing a general one and scrapping it...

So here it is

Getting Started Journaling (from Discovery Health. Com)
Complete the following phrases:

I am eager to ... get to my goal weight and stay there

I doubt myself when ....I have a bad day of eating, I beat myself up and thinI'mIm not strong enough to do this

I feel powerful when... I have another loss on the scales and I think "yes I CAN do this"

I'm proud of myself because ... I am doing this and I have lost 9.3kg so far

My 10 favourite things are...my kids, sunny days, good music, roast lamb, good movies, good friends, my electric blanket on a cold night, a good book, dark chocolate and a good coffee

I am most grateful for... My friends and family that are supporting me through this

I can simplify my life by living without .. being so hard on my self

I feel my mission in life is to... Haven't figured that one out yet! But I think to raise my 3 kids to be responsible happy adults

In my wildest dreams, I ... would love to find a nice person to grow old with

I believe in myself because ... I am strong and I am stubborn.


Happiness is not a station you arrive at, but a manner of traveling. - Margaret B. Runbeck

I'm back

I was a bit lost there on the weight loss front for a while but I'm back.
I was reading someone's blog (I cant remember who's) and they were saying about not using kids illness or "I will start fresh nest Monday" as a excuse to not watch what you eat, or something like that because life will get in the way and what we are doing is a life change not just a diet.
So I have snapped out of my little slump of binge eating and not counting.

I'm back....Oh and reading the new WW mag also helped with the inspiration

I was also inspired by Slim Suzy ( how do you make the link here???) and her little list of questions and answers...I might go think on it a bit and answer tomorrow

Hope everyone is having a great night

Oh and thanks to everyone with regards to the bus thing....I am taking it all the way to the top!
The bus driver was at fault with his lack of duty of care and I never want another child to go through what Talia had to...Next time the out come might not be so happy

A huge scare

My dd Talia (7) was supposed to take the bus home this afternoon from school, it drops her off on the street next to ours and it is a 2 min walk home...at 3.35 I saw the bus go past and I waited for Talia to walk down the road....I waited...

I waited 15 min and sent Eloise up to the bus stop on her bike to see if Talia was there talking to a friend....but she wasn't there!

At 4 pm she still wasnt home, I wasn't going to panic but I woke Matthew up and put him in the car....I then drove to the bus stop and went across the road to one of Talia's friends house thinking she may be playing there....I was ready to give her a serve for not telling me where she was. Her friend which was also on the bus said that she was sitting next to her but Talia didn't get off the bus.....
Ok I am not going to panic but what do i do now...the bus does a loop of the town then heads back to school.

So I drove to the school and went and saw the principal explained what had happened and that Talia was on the bus but didn't get off at her stop.

They tried to ring the bus driver but no answer...by this stage I was feeling quiet ill. They then rang some of the families further on the bus route...no one remembered seeing Talia...

Then the bus driver rang back saying that he saw her crossing the bridge on the other side of town...when I heard this i was almost sick...that is a few Kms away from our house and she was walking alone.

So I headed off to the bridge then home to see if i could see her walking and the principal would drive around looking for her via the bus route and would meet me back home.

When I got home she was there......I have never been so relived in all my life

She missed her stop and then at the end of the route the bus driver told her to get out....even though he knew her stop was way back at the begining...so the poor little kid had to walk 2-3km home...crying and scared that she would get lost...

The principal eventually turned up and I explained what had happened and she said she will be following this up

So i am not happy but relieved that my girl is OK.....I don't even want to think what might have happened
I cant believe the bus driver would leave a 7 year old girl on the side of a busy road to walk all the way home on the other side of town

I decided last week to change schools and this has confirmed that I made the right decision

83 kg

Week 17

I have been feeling pretty BLAH for a week now, at first I thought it was because of all the crap food I have been bingeing on....But it still didn't stop me from eating more crap...I even stopped counting points but alas it was gastro....Talia now has it and I had to go get her from school after she threw up in front of the whole class.

I was expecting a huge gain on the scales this week due to my food indiscretions....But to my utter surprise I had a loss of 0.9 kg...so I am now a happy 73.7 kg
I am so close to half way and 10 kg that I can taste it....

I was reading "M" s post this morning and everything she said I came away thinking "yeah!" I totally agree. By the way "M " you look fantastic!!!!

I don't have a photo of me when I first started but here is the one I used for my profile shot...It was taken in June this year and even though I am wearing dark colours you can still tell how large I was...
I am going to have to get more photos taken of me...Not be so camera shy

A Big Decision

My eldest dd Talia is in year 2. She started at the local primary school this year as we moved. I was extremely happy with her old school and she was happy there but it is 50km away.
I haven't been happy with the school here, it has been little things like not knowing how she has been going, what level of reading she is up to (I asked but was told that they don't do that here as it causes the kids to be competitive) The school reports are basic and are not as detailed as her old school. Everytime I ask how she is going I am told that academically she is fine. I am happy with the teacher it is the school as a whole...I'm not sure if it is because there are so many students that it lacks the personal touch or what.

Am I being to picky???

The teacher has been great with a few incidences of Bullying - they put a stop to it straight away, unfortunately we live next door to one of the bullies...So all in all Talia has been a bit miserable. I know she wants to go back to her old school.

On the other hand the local school is just that- local and later when she reachers High School it will be the school she will be going to .

So I have been in two minds about what to do...

I went and saw the principle of a small Catholic school that I have been told about. I am not religious but my first concern is my children education. Eloise starts Prep next year so I really needed to get my butt in to gear and sort out schools.

This school is in a small county town 20km away which means 80km round trip every day instead of standing on the door step waving as the kids ride their bikes to school.
It is a very small school with a total of 52 students from prep to year 6 but has an excellent reputation both academic and social.

As soon as I walked in I was welcomed and the Principal personally showed me around (I have spoken to the local principal once and I was never shown around the school when I enrolled Talia at the beginning of this year)

The reports are detailed and you know exactly how your child is doing and what they are meant to be achieving .

so to end a long story I enrolled both girls today...They are both pleased

I just hope I have made the right decision

I haven't meant to leave it so long between posts but life has gotten In the way and before I knew it a week has past.

Friday - My sister, niece and I took the kids to TheWerribeee Zoo. I woke up feeling very average and drove the 70kms to meet Jen and Miss at McDonalds. I was feeling so crook that I didn't even splurge.

Miss was a bit nervous as she has only just got off her P plates and it was the first time to drive alone in Melb traffic.We live about 1.5 hours away in central Vic so she had plenty of time to get sweaty palms. She did a great job.

The zoo was great and the kids had a ball. They especially liked the bus tour. I think their favorites were the Rhinos.

We left the zoo at about 3 and headed through Melb traffic to High Point ( a HUGE shopping centre) the first thing was to go to pancake parlour. I was good and only had one

We walked around the shops for a while, had a look at Toy R us and Pumpkin Patch, finally we grabbed Nandos for dinner and headed on home.

Finally got home at 11pm a very long day but soooo worth it
I wasnt to bad on my eating.

Tuesday- weigh in.....I was pretty bad with my eating over the weekend and I wasnt too confident getting on the scales (when am I????) and I am pleased to say that I had a 200gm loss.

Today - Eloise had her first swimming lesson, we got there late due to a tosser doing 70km on The Hwy so I wasnt able to tell instructor that this was her first ever lesson. There was no need as she had a ball and even put her face under the water. We went to Big w and bought her a pair of goggles for next week.
Once we got home I found one of my cats looking very under the weather, so I rang the vet and took him straight up....he has an abcess in one of his lymph nodes in his neck. So a jab of antibiotics and tablets for the next 6 days things looked much better

Well Im off to clean the house as I have an inspection first thing in the morning
Thankyou everyone for their comments, you guys are the best and make things managable

Week 15 weigh in

I admit I was a bit nervous getting on the scales this week due to the amount of garbage that has entered my body of the last few day and the pre TTOTM bloat however I was pleasantly surprised to see 74.8kg that's a loss of 1.2kg which is confusing since I usually put on a kilo Pre TTOTM. But I'm not going to argue .....Take it as a win!

It is also WW 10% goal as well....it took me 15 weeks though!

Only 11.8kg to go

I am feeling heaps better today...More energy and a lot happier.

I have previously crochet 3 blankets, one for each child however I have wanted to make myself one. I was never able to start off but last night I figured it out and have started my blanket, probably not a good idea as we are in spring as those things can get mighty heavy and hot sitting on your lap after a while but It keeps my hands busy at night. I didn't think of snacking after dinner....

Well that's all from me today :)

On the road to self destruction

Why is it we humans seem to sabotage ourselves when things are going good.

I finally hit 75.0kg YIPEE I have been eating right and drinking lots of water. So why is it as soon as I start loosing again I go and do a stupid thing like pig out at a BBQ.

There wasn't any healthy food to start with but I could of had just a sausage in bread....5 points

Instead I ended up having a sausage, bread, 2 hambugers, potato salad and 2 curried eggs.....I mean what the! I'm not even game to add up how many points in that lot.

Ok so I move on, new day....

all was good I had a light brekkie and soup for lunch...All good then I sit down and eat 5 little packets of chips....OH why did I do these stupid things...I have no self control

I need to re focus and stop making excuses of its almost TTOTM.....I will no longer let hormones rule my body. I AM IN CHARGE HERE - yeah right

Today is a brand new day of a new week....Moving forward

Pretzel Blow Out

I did a really silly thing yesterday and bought a bag of pretzel sticks thinking that I could trust myself enough to only eat a little at a time

HOW WRONG WAS I

50 grams is 2.5 points.....I sat there last night and ate the whole bag of 200 grams, that's a whopping 10 point binge!

I looked at the empty packet this morning and felt so guilty, like I betrayed myself.

So moving right along (I have punished myself enough) I had a really good day today. Talia stayed all day at a friends house and Eloise was invited to play at a Kinder friends. We stayed for a couple of hours before walking home.

We then went to visit my sister so that we could drop off the rooster before the neighbor's complain about the morning wake up call.

So all in all I have had a good day and after dinner I still have a 4.5 points which I might save after last nights effort.

Discipline is the bridge between goals and accomplishment. - Jim Rohn

Hmmmmm Subway

Today I went with a girlfriend to town for some shopping.....
So of course while we were o the way home we dropped into subway...

I think I am addicted but by golly they are high in points when you add the extra yummies

I have a 6 inch toasted chicken fillet with bacon and Swiss cheese for a whopping 8.5 points but it is sooooo worth it.

I could eat that everyday but it has only left me 6.5 points for dinner and after dinner munchies..

Does any one else have the after dinner munchies? If so how have you dealt with it....

I could just eat and eat.....

Well that's all from me today :)

Week 14

I did write and post the other day but it seems to be floating in cyber space. It was nothing earth shattering or profound so your not missing much.

So I had weigh in this morn...And I am pleased that I lost the half kilo I put on last week but I am back to week 12 weight of 76kg.

I have been very good with my eating, tracking and water intake but not so good with the exercise. Except for today I had to get new tires on my car so it was the walk home and back to the tire place (about a 2km round trip) better than nothing.
I have been doing heaps of incidental exercise such as walking to the park with the kids and playing footy..
My 5yo stacked off her scooter on the way to the park...Poor possum, thankfully she was wearing her helmet or it could have been a lot worse.

Hope everyone is having a great week :)

A week in short.....

Talia had her school fair on Thursday which at first I thought I wouldn't be able to make it as my landlord was to come and asses the house for a new fence and if I am really lucky a pantry.

She was nice enough to come over early and I was able to pick up Eloise from Kinder and get to the fair. It was really good. I a bit disappointed that they had NO healthy food or water to drink but I managed to get through with only a sausage in bread....It could have been lots worse as there was lasagna and baked potatoes.

Even with the sausage I was still with-in points for the day and also did some weights that night.

Friday we were all off to the optometrist and that went well with none of us needing glasses....
Did the food shopping so there are now lots of yummy fruit and veg in the house again....
Coles were having a little Weight watchers plug so I picked up a few of those chocolate puddings (3 points) but to die for....They are divine.


All in all this week has been good, I have been within points all week...Tracking as well
I have been drinking at least 2L water daily and even exercised

Even if I don't have a loss this week I feel fantastic.

The secret to happiness is not in doing what one likes to do, but in liking what one has to do. - unknown

Week 13 Weigh In

Ok 7.30 this morning I was lying in bed dreading getting up as I knew the scales were waiting for me...
I heaved my body out of bed and on I get.....open the eyes, open the eyes.....

0.5kg GAIN!!!!!!!

Ok it could have been worse, I just need to take a big breath in and look forward.

hope everyone else is having a great day

A big shot is a little shot that kept shooting. - unknown

I've been SO naughty!

My niece had her 19th Birthday yesterday so the family went to a cafe in Echuca for afternoon tea, sounds innocent hey!
Well I was really good and ordered a skinny cappuccino then I realised that they have the BEST pancakes, so I had to!
OMG they were to die for. 2 of the largest pancakes I have seen covered in chocolate sauce and cream. I ate the LOT!!!!!!
I didn't have the cream though :)
I was so full for the rest of the day that all I had for dinner was some strawberries and grapes.
I have weigh in tomorrow morning, if I have a loss this week I will fall over!
Well we can all dream :)

Today was good, Matthews grandma came to visit from Perth and stayed for the afternoon and she and Matthew had a great time together.
Poor little man was so tired that he went to bed at 6pm.

1407 steps for the day

Happiness is not a destination. It is a method of life. - Burton Hills

A new look

A new look for my blog and thanks to those clever people who helped my add all the extra bits. A big thanks you to Slim Suzy for her help with the profile picture. I am going to have to find a better one!
I did a bit of research on the web on web designing and this helped me heap....I have a whole new appreciation of each and every web site I visit now :)

We had a rather large thunderstorm here last night, reminded me of the wet season up north....Gee I miss it (never move back though!)

and that reminded me of geckos, and I love geckos. They are the cutest things. I especially love the little green on on the Goodyear ad with Peter Brock....So cute! (the gecko -not peter!)

I'm in an odd mood today, the girls are outside playing and the boy is asleep...House is lovely and quiet so I'm making the most of it!

have a great day everyone :)


It is quite possible to work without results, but never will there be results without work. - unknown