I have my car back

I finally got to pick up my car from the mechanics yesterday afternoon, with a hefty bill of $790...And that didn't include the service that was due....So I have to book it back in for that.

Oh and I need a new tire, the one on the car had the steel belt showing ( I nearly was sick when I found out knowing that it could have blown at any moment) but it was on the inside so wasn't able to see it....So I might as well replace 2 and put them on the front...

I have the spare on the back at the moment..I need to save up a bit first...

I hopped on the scales yesterday morning for my week 11 weigh in......OMG I put on a kilo.....
How is it that it takes me 2 weeks to loose a kilo but a few short days to put one on!
So all that bad binge eating last week did do something! BUGGER

I'm not going to change my ticker though....I'm hoping next week will be kind to me when I hop back on the scales.

Great changes may not happen right away, but with effort even the difficult may become easy. - Bill Blackman

This is me....I am 83 kgs here.....back in June 

I have been so bad!

Wow time has flown since I last posted on Thursday. Well we had our family meeting and a few issues came out and we have discussed and initiated plans of attack. Talia thought that this was a great idea (the family meeting) and wants one every week.

Well from Friday onwards my eating went to shit....I have been a very naughty girl!

Saturday night we went out for dinner at a Chinese restaurant to celebrate my nieces 21 and I ate and ate and ate...Even had mud cake and cheese cake for dessert...
Sunday wasn't much better but at least I am doing a little bit of exercise....I am digging up a huge garden bed ready for summer....

I still have not got my car back so am still walking Eloise to Kinder and home again...It maybe ready for tomorrow.

So after a terrible week of emotional ups and down and a really bad week of food I am ready to hop on the scales tomorrow morning.
I know I have put on a kilo or two and I have no one to blame but myself!

Week 11 will be a new start....Back on track

Failure is only the opportunity to begin again, this time more wisely.

OK everything will be alright!

After this last week or so of feeling really crappy, Im back to normal.
I even lost 0.5kg this week, so after 10 weeks I have lost a total of 6kg....I was at the begining hoping to loose a kilo a week, but realistically I know its not going to happen.
I am pretty happy with 6 kg...
Other than that the weather has been beautiful, all the spring flowers are comming out and I feel great.

I walked Eloise to Kinder and then home again..So all up I walked for an hour, I am hoping that it will help to shift that snickers bar I had in weakness yesterday.
The only thing wrong with my life at the moment is my 7 year old, who has a huge attitude at the moment. Im not sure what to do to fix it. I am hoping a family meeting tonight will help.
Hopefully we can sort out what is causing all the angst.
The two girls are fighting non stop at the moment. This is so unusual as they have always gotten along. I think a big problem is that they share a room and dont have any space to call their own...but other kids share a room. I know they are going to fight and bicker but its all gotten out of control. It is time to pull the reins in.
I have the inner strength to deal with this ....


"To accomplish great things, we must not only act, but also dream; not only plan, but also believe."

I cant be bothered

I am writing this feeling like absolute shit!
I cant be bothered doing this anymore....Why cant I just be happy fat...
It all started with me getting down the boxes of kids clothes that I put aside for each season, spring is just around the corner and there is no time like the present for sorting out clothes. I also found a box of clothes of mine when I was a size 12, 2.5 years ago!
They all look so tiny.
I am so over this healthy eating, exercise thing!

I feel like such a blimp I'm not sure If I feel like this because its almost TTOTM or what...

So far today I have eaten

Bowl nutri grain and 2 coffees 3 points
1 egg, cheese and beetroot sandwich 5 points
2 choc chip ww biscuits 1 point
small bag chicken in a biskit 2 points
I lt water

I have weigh in tomorrow morn and I cant see a loss...

I want to start feeling good again....I need motivation!

48 hours

Well all plans went out the window when my sister turned up to babysit with a cold. So I ended up driving to town while Jen stayed home with the kids. I arrived at court starving as I had no time for brekkie with the changed plans, thinking that I would be waiting all day.However after only waiting for 20 min the prosecuting officer came up saying that the defendant wants to plea and that I am free to go!

I was so relieved, I am not very good at public speaking so I was nearly in a flat panic....No need.

I rang jen and she was fine with the kids so I went and saw my mechanic to see how the car repairs are going....He is still waiting for a part and that all up it will approx cost between $600-$700. That's no too bad for a service, 2 steering columns and fixing the gearbox. Not sure when it will be ready though...

So once I left there I went and did a food shop ON MY OWN...No kids. It was so peaceful but not any cheaper!
By this time I still hadn't eaten and I was on my way home, I had to get fuel so I popped into the BP with a subway attached. I have never had subway before so it was quiet daunting standing there trying to decide what to have.....
I was a bit naughty and ended up having a 6 inch with chicken breast, bacon and Swiss cheese toasted....OMG it was to die for..
I think it is worth driving the extra 70km round trip to do my shopping just for subway.
So anyway got home just in time to pick up Talia from school and head over to Jenni's to scrapbook.
The evening didn't go as plan either. Melissa my niece came in saying that she thought she heard a lamb bleating and then proceeded to ransack the house looking for a torch.
We all went out (no torch) looking for the pet sheep to find which one had lambed.
There wasn't just one lamb but 2 - twins and unfortunately Thomas the ram hadn't allowed Rosie (the mum) near them and she had abandoned them.
so at 11.30pm we were out trying to get a rather large ram away from the ewes....Fun- NOT
We managed to get rosie and the twins into a calf pen away from Thomas but she wouldnt let the lambs near her. It is really heart breaking to hear them call and know that she didn't want anything to do with them. But that wasn't our only problem, they needed to drink. Poor Rosie is blind in one eye due to crows when she was a baby - we rescued her and now she is terrified of people and everything.
So it was 12.30am and my niece and I had Rosie up against the wall trying to get the lambs to feed but to no avail. We left Rosie in the pen away form Thomas and took the lambs inside they would have to be bottle fed.
We discovered that we had a boy (Barley) and a girl(Lily). We will keep Lily for breeding and eat Barley next year...
The next morning (Melissa was the one up every 2 hours feeding lambs) we had to go out and separate Thomas from Sheeba (our other ewe)....Well that was fun as I had to learn to ride a 4 wheel motorbike really quick, give me a horse anytime....
So now we have a pregnant ewe and Rosie in the house paddock and a very upset ram in the back paddock.
So by the them I got home yesterday afternoon I was exhausted and fell into bed last night.

Just another day

I am so sick of not having a car....Though it is making me walk Eloise to kinder 3 times a week....20 min each way, so I am walking approx 1 1/2 hours on those days....Those cold mornings are a killer though.

I am having to go and give evidence at court tomorrow so I'm not looking forward to that......And since the incident happened over 2 years ago the memory is a big vague....Don't know how much help I will be....

I am feeling a bit low at the moment......I wont bore you with the details tonight though!

Goodnight to all

Week 9 Weigh in

Wow its been 9 weeks already....I never thought I would ever get this far...I am always starting things and not finishing them....

I had a bath last night as a treat for getting my 5kg book mark and normally I take up the whole bath but last night I noticed that there are inches of room either side of me!

WOW this is the first thing that has really made me realize that the weight is coming off...What a great feeling...

I hopped on the scales this morning and another 0.5kg has gone....This is so additive....

I cant wait until it is all gone....

I got my bookmark!!!!!!

I received my 5kg bookmark off weight watchers today.....I cant believe how good it feels to get a tiny bit of cardboard :)

I have made a mini goals of

1. 10% Goal of 74.7kg
2. 5kg gone by my birthday
3. 10 more kilos before Christmas....

I have my week nine weigh in tomorrow but after a disastrous weekend it isn't looking good, but as long as I haven't gained I will be happy...

here's to tomorrow :)

5 down 18 to go

Yipeeeee

I hopped on the scales this morning and 78 was staring back at me....

that's a total of 5kg lost in 8 LONG weeks. It really hasn't really been that bad and I feel really good!
I thought at the begging of this journey I would be really good and loose all the weight and then I would no longer have to deprive my self of all the yummy foods that I wasn't allowed to eat.

I am feeling so good with all the good food going into my body that I hardly miss the bad....Well not as much as I thought I would....

I never want to go back to feeling, flat, yukky and tired....
bring on the energy !!

I am so motivated now.....I never thought I could do this .....But I can....

Only 18 to go.....

Just my luck

I was on my way to do the food shopping on Friday when I thought I had blown up my gearbox.....OH no
I had to call my sister who came and got the kids and I and took us food shopping....
My brother In law and I went down later and put it on a car trailer and took it to the mechanic...
The good news is that I haven't blown up the transmission but it does need a new part and I wont be with a car for about 2 weeks.....

So there will be lots of walking for me in the next 2 weeks so Eloise can go to Kinder.

Weigh in tomorrow so fingers crossed

Time Flies

Wow I cant believe how long it has been since I have written.
Matthew was sick for a long time. He ended up with both a chest and ear infection and was on antibiotics for 2 weeks...
Talia then came off her bike and split her lip....2 stitches later and a $50 after hours doctor bill she was patched up...

As for my weight...I have been really good with my eating...But a bit slack with the exercise...
So I haven't lost anything....But I haven't gained either so I guess that is good.

I couldn't do weigh in yesterday as my scales were on the blink....They are not that old so I was going to take them back today and they started working....

So weigh in tomorrow and hopefully (fingers crossed) there will be a loss

7 weeks and only 4 kg gone....I was hoping for a better result than this.

I will keep going though :)

What a Week

This last week has been tiring....Matthew has been soooo sick!
He got over his croup OK but ended up back at the doctors with a chest and ear infection.
I don't think I slept for about 4 days and then on Friday Eloise had her 5th Birthday....It was such a big week...
Tuesday was my week 4 weigh in and I didn't do very well...I put on a kilo but I haven't had time to exercise so I wasn't surprised!

Things are getting back to normal now I just have to get focused again as I have been feeling bit low:(

Croup

Poor Matthew has had a nasty cough for a few days which had slowly gotten worse, so off to the doctor today....

He has croup!

This is the first time one of my kids has had it....He is on prednisolone for 2 days to ease his airways....Its so horrible to listen to him cough!

We will be sleeping in the lounge tonight with the heater on....

He is so miserable.....

Birthday Binge

I have been soooo naughty

Matthew had his first birthday party last night. I knew there would be yummy things like party pies, sausage rolls and cake so I bought a low fat dip to go with the celery and carrot sticks that I cut up so that I would not be tempted ......

I was going good....And then I thought....Just one!

Well it didn't stop there, I had a party pie, 3 cocktail franks and a piece of cake :(

I could have been happy with that until the mini wagonwheels came out and I had one of those as well!!!!!!

I have NO self control.....

I don't really feel bad as I could have eaten more and I will be back on track very soon.

It felt really good that my sister actually said she could notice the weight coming off :)

Tonight I am going to do some weights and I will feel better

I'm SO Happy !!!!!

I reluctantly got on the scales this morning expecting to either be stable or put on some weight....Instead I lost

2.5 kg

Yippeeee

I can do this.......

I am determined not to go back over 80kgs again....

Friday night is going to be a challenge as we are celebrating Matthews 1st Birthday and there will be lots of yummy things to eat.

but I am going to cut up some carrot, capsicum and celery for me to munch on...

after a few days of feeling yukky this is just great

Moving time

I'm finding staying I on track at the moment very challenging, I am still feeling very low.
I was chatting online to a friend in Perth last night and I got so home sick....I miss Perth.
So this morning I made a decision to move the bedrooms around. I have been thinking about it for a while as the girls bunks annoy me and in my room even though its tiny I can separate the beds.
So I had to dismantle the bunks and move them out of the room, then dismantle my bed as it is solid wood and very heavy. Then set that up. Then I put the girls beds together and mad them all. I still have heaps to do....But I'm feeling better already.

I move my furniture if I am feeling off....It helps with my itchy feet

I am hoping that tomorrow morning I will wake up feeling better and I can get back on track...I haven't eaten anything bad but I haven't been eating regular or drinking enough water...

Tuesday is not looking to good for a loss :(

Feeling Flat

I have been feeling really flat and down today. I don't know why but I thought visiting my sister would help, and it did. I spent most of the time fixing up her computer.
I had 3 cups of ovaltine lite with real milk...yummmmm
I went via the IGA on the way home to get some milk and all I could smell was the cooked chickens....All I could think of was a hot chicken sandwich.....
I almost relented but I didn't....
It is 7.41 and I am ready for bed, Matthew is crying in his cot and both girls are awake....It has been one of those days!
I might wait until the kids are asleep and then go have a nice hot bath with a good book
Hopefully I will wake up tomorrow morning feeling a heap better

Wednesday Woes

Had a terrible night last night. Talia had nightmares and growing pains and Eloise had a dry raspy cough that kept waking her up which in turn she woke me up.
So this morning the last thing I felt like doing was sticking to an eating plan and exercise but I did.
This weight is not going to beat me.
I went to the chemist to buy some cough mixture so hopefully things will be quiet in my house tonight.
I might even do some weights tonight.
I am one day closer to my goal weight :)

Wohoo First One Down

I was nervous getting on the scales this morning. I knew if I hadn't lost any weight I would be disappointed and I know through this journey there will be some weeks that I wont loose any but today I wanted to start off on a high
So on I hop and YES Im down to 82.....
WOW what a feeling....I can do this only 22 to go

The kids and I did heaps of gardening today....I worked the rake really hard, even worked up a sweat...And made the shoulders burn.....But a good burn.

Well Im off to change my ticker.....